moody

why do you have to be that way?
I'm sorry if you're mad at me.
I didn't mean it to be that way.
I would have never want it to be like that.
But i'm only human.
I'm young. I'm immature. I'm selfish. I'm self-centered.
Yes, I'm all that sometimes.
But I'm learning to be better.

Yet again, I'm sorry.
Though you will never be able to hear me say this.
I'm still learning to be a better person

Ramadhan di Kolej dan di rumah sewa

Having experienced the best (and worst) of both places I called my 2nd home i tend to realize so many differences between the two- the provided college and the paid for rented house. Thus, here are some memories I had fasting at the college and at the rented house. =)

note:mind the spelling, grammer and whatever error you may find here. Malas nk tulis skema2.

Buka puasa di Kolej:

Roomate akan berkumpul and berbuka ramai-ramai. Kadang2, roomate bilik sebelah join skali. Riuh sebilik jadinya. Makanan berbuka dikongsi bersama. So boleh rasa mcm2 jenis makanan.

Buka puasa di rumah sewa:

Kadang2 makan sesame. Kadang2 xpun. Ada yg pergi berbuka kt luar. Makan suma sendiri2. So,kurang feel/meriah mcm kat kolej. Rindu plak nk berbuka dgn keluarga.Huhu. Tapi housemate rajin masak. Mmg hari2 berasap la dapur tu. Bak kata N, rumah tu mcm restoran.Haha.

Bersahur di Kolej:

Dulu duk sebilik dgn roomate yg rajin berjalan.Jd tgh mlm nnt mesti pesan kt dia tlg bli makanan kt kafe. Sahur mmg xkan miss sbb senang terjaga since mesti akan tersedar if roomate bersiap utk bersahur.

Kat rumah sewa plak:

Hmm.. Kdg2 tu ada gk ter"miss" sahur. Slalu housemate tak gerak pun sbb ada yg xnk bersahur. So masing2 pandai2 la bgun sndr.Klau kunci jam pun blum tentu blh bgn. Therefore, the lesson i've learn :letak jam jauh2 dr katil n kunci reminder kt handphone tiap2 5minit.

Menjelang hari raya di kolej:

Time ni yg paling best. Rasa excited pun ada especially bila tgk roomate2 lain excited nk balik kampung. Pastu, tiap2 mase, ada je lagu raya kedengaran. Asal msg masuk je..lagu raya. ringtone..lagu raya. Alarm clock pun..LAGU RAYA. Mula2 mmg la terasa shahdu mengingatkn lebaran yang bakal tiba, tp lame2 naik muak gak.Haha..

Menjelang hari raya di rumah sewa:

Kat rumah sewa takde la kedengaran lagu raya setiap minit. Tu yang rindu suasana kolej.Huhu.. Tp, sedih bila tgk housemate suma dh start packing barang. Sorang2 akan balik ke kampung masing 2 sbb dorg dh beli tiket awal. Kite yg duk dekat ni la yg paling last balik.

Hari Raya di kolej dan rumah sewa:

Time ni best! Masing2 bawa balik kuih beraneka jenis. So, dpt la rasa kuih dr pelbagai negeri. Suma pun still dlm mood beraya and ceria selalu.

People can talk

People can talk
why?
because they can!



sometimes it sounded good.
pleasing.soothing.meaningful.hopeful.
sometimes it's just not all that.
And the rest of the time? Bulls##t.



Why?



Because they talk

with closed eyes
with closed ears
and most of the time with closed heart and mind.


So why don't you try to
open up your eyes
open up your ears
open up your heart and mind
and not only open up your blabbering mouth
just because you can.



I'll not try to shut you out,
as I know,
people can talk,

eventhough


sometimes it sounded good.
pleasing.soothing.meaningful.hopeful.
sometimes it's just not that.
And the rest of the time? Bulls##t.

Hmmph...

Happy =)

Recently, I got a chance to walk down my childhood memory lane. I got to visit some places that I haven't been to for a very long while. Though I always come back to my hometown but I never got the chance to visit those places that truly brings out the child in me.

First stop : Teluk Chempedak

A lot has changed since my last visit. There's fast food restaurant and the place look better and hype than before.

The moment I stepped at the beach, I could feel the strong breeze embracing me, the smell of salted sea in the air and the sound of splashing water as it reaches the beach shore. This used to be my family weekend gateway. I can't help but smile to see kids running around, family picknicking under some tree, kites flying up high...wish I could spend more time there.

Next:Zoo Mini Taman Teruntum

A mini zoo located just a few minutes away from TC. This place hasn't change much. Animal cages are still there, the playground looks like some improvement works has been done,and monkeys are still running all around that place. Looking at that mammal reminds me of the days in Kenanga during intersesi. Still remembers that thief of a monkey that broke into our room and savour with our food!

Here are some pics taken in TC:

sampling spreeeeee

Went to Giant today. As i walked through the isles,I remembered the day went my lil bro and I went on a mission.A sampling spree mission.

It was executed on a weekend at Giant.My family went to the hypermarket to do some grocery shopping. As we arrived at the canned food section,a lady approaced me and my bro with a food to sample. As we continue wallking ,we realized that at the end of EVERY LANE,there will be some kind of food or drink to taste. So, from one sample lead to another and another and another..

So my bro and I planned to see how many sample cups can we collect that day. Imagine all of the food,waiting for us to taste. And so,there were both of us, walking innocently through every isle like a normal shopper near every promoter, putting on that oohh-what's-that?-can-I-taste-it face.Yeah I know, some may say it's childish, but it was all fun! When it comes to my bro and I,no one can know what crazy game will we be up to.

At the end of the day, we managed to collect nearly 20 sample cups. Not only we went home that day with a trolly full of grocery, but also with a satisfied tummy =)

*MISSION ACCOMPLISHED*

Something to listen to..

As I was boringly browsing the videos in youtube.com,suddenly I stumbled upon such a beautiful voice. This group was named as Ahmir.Love listen to their covers.Here are some just to share..



i'm currently addicted to this:







I dedicate this one to all of my frens =)

Can't wait!

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince trailers..for other trailers,do lookup in youtube.. =)

source:www.youtube.com

untittled

Alhamdulillah..syukur sgt..rezeki murah sejak kebelakangan ni..Alhamdulillah

***

I've got an assessment this Monday.To all my family and friends, pray for me and wish me luck k =) Thanks...

P/S: >>nervous<<

My assessment experience:2nd stage

The 2nd stage of the assessment was held the very day before our tax paper.I was damn worried considering that I have not even finish studying for the paper.But,I just have to face whatever that's to come.Think positive!



So,I arrived at Legend Hotel.This time,I came in prepared.I've read through the company's background and have scribbled some notes..



As I entered the room,there were 6 other people sitting at a table and I could see 2 familiar face from the first assessment.I was soo happy as now I know who I will be assessed with then.The facilitator then gave us a brief of today's agenda. To my surprise,there were 3 task installed for the 7 of us that evening. 3 very demanding task.



Task #1:Individual presentation

We were given a file full with information of a case study and we need to present a problem and solution.30 minutes were given.The case was about a survey done by an IT company.The tough part was there were no defined problem in the case!They only give you info about a customer survey.What should I write?So..with the clocks ticking, I quickly summarize everything and start writing on the mahjong paper. My solution for the problem was : to improvise the company's culture.I don't have any concreate idea,but that's the best that I could give hoping that I can goreng later on.



We were then ushered to our own individual room and prepare to present it infront of an assessor for 15minutes.



So,here I am.Standing in front of her.I present my case.As I expected.I became nervous.It first started all well, but then,I jumbled up my points.She then asked me a question,"you've presented me with your idea but you haven't given me any examples for this.Can you elaborate more to clearly define it".I was like..shoot..how can you give example for a culture change.And so,I paused......A very,very long pause.....Nothing came out of my head..Argghh..I could feel the tension in the air.After what seem like forever,I then just blurted out anything hoping it makes sense. Thankfully she didn't ask me any furthur.Fuh..



Task summary:it was dreadful.I'm not sure wether I have done my best.Confident level also went down.



Task#2:Group discussion

My fav part,but still I'm afraid that there will be a dominant pshyco in the group.Everyone looks super confident.Again,we were given another file of case study.Same company,but different situation.This time,we need to discuss about the best location to relocate the company's division.



This time,all 7 of us were sitted at a round table and all of the other assessors(around 9 or 10 people) sat behind each one of us.It was kindda creepy I think because you know that you are individually scrutinized.So,my strategy for this round : stand out from the crowd.



So,After the 15minutes preparation time,we start off the discussion.It was pretty interesting.I must say that I enjoyed the process of supporting your idea,helping others out with the case and counter back other's suggestion.



However,midway through the discussion,as we were about to end up with a conclusion,a so called fax came in with new information about the relocation.Accordingly, some wanted to change the solution,but the rest of us still stands by with the decision eventhough the fax said that the location has fallen off(which in my opinion is not a big deal.So what if the land there has fallen off.We can find a nearby land right??)But then,the discussion ended before we could even arrive at any decision.



Later,one of the facilitator said,"Guys,just to tell you that when it said fallen off means that the location is out of option.You cannot proceed there".Haha..okay..now I know.But,what can we do. The discussion has passed.We just hope for the best then.



Task summary:better that previous.Not so nervous.No dominant pshyco.Fun!



Task#3:Roleplay

When they say roleplay..I was like..ohhh..cooolll.Haha.I was excited because all you need to do is to act.That's simple.Considering that I only have to act alone and I've done roleplay before for our BEL class and I also took drama for my co-curicular.



And again,another file of case study came in.This time,we need to roleplay with an unsatisfied customer of the company. Therefore we need to handle him/her as far as the company policy permits.



So,here I am,with a customer(aka assessor) negotiating and fnding a solution for her problem.Another assessor was also in the room.He keeps on taking notes of the negotiation. I must say,I was lucky to have a calm unsatisfied customer since one of the candidates got a very angry customer to the point that she felt really intimidated as the customer keeps raising his voice and showed weird angry faces.



Task summary:it went well and it was so muh fun!!



Conclusion:

It was a tiring day but I had fun.Hopefully I'll get through for the 3rd stage which is the final stage and for the Tax paper on the next day.

1/6/2009

1st June 2009.It could have been 3 years then.But past is the past.I'm moving on.I'm able to embrace the fact that it's gone now.I'm moving forward but I will not forget what's left behind.I will not forget the things I've learned and experienced in the past.It shaped who I am today.But for now,I'm looking forward for the future! =) There's always something new and exciting thing to learn isn't it?


But whatever it is, I would say that I'm thankful for everything that fall into place.THANKFUL.It's not mere words but it runs deep inside me.I'm thankful as I'm able to experience wonderful times eventhough it was brief and learn alot about life,sacrifice,patient and the list just goes on.


May you rest in peace.


P/S:Kerinduan itu timbul apabila seseorang itu terputus dari nikmat-Nya.So,when you miss something or someone,let it be your loved ones,your cat or even your brand new-but-somehow-missing handphone,be grateful as that thing or someone is a gift from Allah.Be grateful that Allah with His Kindness give us such great gift.A gift that after all belongs to Him.

My fav poem : "If I Knew"

I came accross this poem as I read the book tittled "An hour to live,An hour to love" (as published in my prev post).It was written in the memory of all those who perished in the 9/11 tragedies. The words in the poem really moves me emotionally and it fits the philosophy about not taking life for granted. Therefore,I'm dedicating this poem to all of my family,friends and those who know me for I really appreciate all of you truely for being one of the beautiful colours in my life.This poem bears repeating....

If I knew

If I knew it would be the last time

That I'd see you fall asleep,

I would tuck you in more tightly

and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time

that I see you walk out the door,

I would give you a hug and kiss

and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time

I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,

I would video tape each action and word,

so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,

I could spare an extra minute

to stop and say "I love you,"

instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time

I would be there to share your day,

well I'm sure you'll have so many more,

so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow

to make up for an oversight,

and we always get a second chance

to make everything just right.

There will always be another day

to say "I love you,"

And certainly there's another chance

to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,

and today is all I get,

I'd like to say how much I love you

and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,

young or old alike,

And today may be the last chance

you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,

why not do it today?

For if tomorrow never comes,

you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time

for a smile, a hug, or a kiss

and you were too busy to grant someone,

what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,

and whisper in their ear,

Tell them how much you love them

and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"

"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."

And if tomorrow never comes,

you'll have no regrets about today.

by Dr. H Solomon

Source:http://www.happyfeelings.com/pos/if_i_knew.htm

Point of blankness

Have you ever been in a stage of blankness where nothing seem to be digesting in your brain?A total standstill of brain function.Everything is black and doesn't make sense. Well,my point of blankness happened on one fateful day where I was standing in front of a crowd.

It all happen in one of the days in 2008.I was given the task to recite a poem in front of like 60 over people and VIPs.Really important VIP.They were high ranking officers from UiTM and a company including its CEO, Dato' Ahmad Pardas.

So,you can imagine the burden and level of my nervouseness.I prepared a poem which I had gone through in what seem to be a hundred of times.Wherever I go, the poem is in my hand.I want to ensure I'll remember every single word and not to make a shame of myself,my faculty and UiTM.

When the time has come,the emcee invited me to the stage.I walked nervously.Heart is pounding frantically.I took a deep breath and stand by the mic.First,I welcomed all the officers and the audience.Okay, that was a good start.So, i recite the first sentece of the first verse.

Suddenly...I lost track!I can't remember my next verse.I tried to remember the lines but it is all jumbled up.I started to panic.My visions were blur.I keep telling to myself,just go on.Don't make a fool of yourself and UiTM.All eyes were on me.What should I do?

So..the next best thing I did was to recite the next line slowly to buy some time to think before goreng time!I took another deep breath and then, I don't know what happened.I just make up my own poem.Well,as long as it rhymes and make sense, its a poem baby!I just blurted out whatever lines I remembered and make up the others.Yup..it was goreng all the way.Haha..When I think it has been long enough I then ended the poem.I walked back to my seat, hoping I didn't screw everything up and that no one knows I made everything up.

We had some food after the event.I was relieved that it has ended.I was a bit frustrated though because I'm afraid that people will realize my cover up.A bit of emotional at that time.But then,suddenly my programme coordinator approached me and congratulate me for the poem.I was like..what?I just smiled and thanked her but deep inside me a huge burden was lifted.I guess it wasn't that bad after all.

Before we went back, a couple of officers also approached me and compliment me for the presentation.He asked which faculty I'm from and all.Whoa..okay..Ceh,previously sad and nervous,now I was glad and happy.I'm pretty glad that I'm able to make my faculty proud.hihi..Amazed as well that the goreng poem works.Hahaha..

I came home that day with a new self confidence. Now I know that,in desperate times, just stay focus and just goreng all the way.Goreng is now my new fav technique.I also thanked God for helping me that day and the al-Fatihah that I recited help me to regain my focus.

So,tips of the day:

>>goreng!(pastikan secukup rasa)
>>just be calm in any situation
>>always pray to God

My assessment experience:first stage

A couple a months ago, I attended an interview and it was so much fun! I met new friends and they were all so much fun to hang out with. I enjoy meeting new people and it's a good way to widen your social circle. I also gained new experiences from the interview. Yeah, I've been through several interviews but to date, haven't got through many of them, but I just need to look ahead until the opportunity comes, right?

So,back to the interview thing. There are 3 stages(I know it's a lot) you need to go through. Here, I'll write about the first stage.

The first stage interview was scheduled on the very next day after "the crazy night",which of course I'm not prepared at all since I only had 3 hours of sleep. I woke up at 6 am and was rushing all over that morning since my clothes were not ironed, my certificates were all over the place and my bag was a mess. I was nervous,stressed up but I enjoyed it.Haha..At 6.45 am, my dad arrived.So, i just grab whatever I saw,hoping that I will not left anything. I also grabbed my heels,yesterday newspaper and makeup kit and quickly entered into the car hoping that I could steal some time to apply them in the car.A girl got to do what a girl got to do right?

So, on the way there, I was busy preparing myself and rearranging the certificate. I can't believe it was so unorganized.It took me like 30minutes to arrange them.My dad keeps stealing glances on what I'm doing.I'm soo thankful that he didn't give me any lecture about the chaos.Hehe..

As I arrived at the destination, it was only 7.30am and the interview only starts at 9am so we go and had some breakfast. I didn't had anything since I was so damn nervous. I just flipped through the newpaper I took,hoping to get an insight of current issues.Yeah,I blame myself for being ignorance.Mental note:be more aware of the current issues.It's important!(I hope I'll be able to do this)

Later,my dad left and I hang around at the interviewer's office. Walking around the place hoping to get a little info about the company. I even asked the maintenance person where I could get their phamplets.Haha..But,all I got was their divisions and their corporate culture.Okay..I hope it was sufficient though.I've set my mind to "goreng" all I can today.Yeah, something that I'm quite good at.hehe..

At 9am,I registered myself and we were briefed about today's assessment.Fist level,there will be a group discussion and later there will be an online test. I was saying to myself, ok..I can do it.It's like MUET.Group discussion is a norm in UiTM.All I need to do is talk and if there's any dominant psycho,I will cut him and say,"ok..we value all of your opinion but I think we should hear others out too right?".Yeah, I'm mentally prepared and got some tricks under my sleeves. Just stay focus and insert anything about the company value in the discussion.

We were divided into groups and my group was first called for the group discussion.Huhu..I walked in with confidence and try to be calm to have a clear mind. It's important so that my brain can work properly considering that I didn't get enough rest.The topic given was about landslides, whether it was caused by natural forces or human activities. Okay, not a tough topic,or that's what I thought.

5 minutes were given to prepare. I was a bit blur on what point to write. Nervous and panic. God, please help me through this. "and times up, you may start the discussion", the assessor said.Shoot!I only had one or two points.Unexpectedly, I started the discussion.Haha.Even with all the nervous thing going on, I took the lead. "In my opinion, landslides happened because of natural forces. This is a serious matter as it has leaded to death...bla..bla."Yeah, grammer was all jumbled up, but I just has to said it.

Everyone gave their opinion.Some talked about expanding the geology expertise and what not and then this guy started to talk point of balance in a building at highlands and another was talking about Penang residence area that was stable regardless of what I'm not so sure about. I was like..huh?I was blur. What the heck were they talking about?So,for the sake of talking, I just talked and repeat other ideas.Reemphasize them =).It's better than sitting and not talking at all. But, midway through the discussion, I thought, this can't go on.I must present new ideas.Within that split second, I looked back at the points that were on table..and WHAMP!Goreng time has come.Haha..and I said, "we've been focusing on the future. But what about now? We should do something now. We should..bla..bla..bla..preserve our forest..bla..bla..to ensure a sustainable future(the company's mission)"Bullseye!So the discussion steer back on the new idea.Thank god.

After 30minutes, the assessor said "and times up.thank you.You may leave the room". Fuh, hope I did well though my grammer was all over the place.I'm also thankful that there's no dominant pshyco in the group as well =)*happy*

Then, we had lunch. THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS!!!I mean seriously delicious.I heard they paid rm60/head for the food.So me and my new buddy eat like a happy child utilizing the RM60 worth of buffet.The dessert was marvelous as well.All I can say is, YUMMY!

While waiting for the test, my group sat at the auditorium. We talked about each other.Some of them are from UiTM too.It's fun talking to them. Each of them were good during the discussion and I'm impressed by the way they speak. One of my groupmate was kindda cute too.Haha..Cuci mata jap. I must say, I did'nt feel intimidated or inferior among them because we are all the same which really helps during the prev discussion.

So later, it's online test time. First, is the mathematical test.25 question in 20minutes.I thought it would be a simple add and minus kindda thing, but noooo...There's graph, charts, and tables. The question wasn't straight forward either. My strategy here is, if you can't get the answer, just press any number that looks logical. Thankfully, I'm able to finish this test within the time frame.

Next is the comprehension test.I thought it would be better than the math test.But...noooo..still more effing tough.They gave you like a few 3 paragraph articles and you have to choose the true statements.Sound easy right, but with all the scientific terms and bombastic vocab, to answer 25 question in 20minutes is not sufficient.When there's 1 more minute left, I was only midway through the question!Panic attack!My strategy then:tekan je ape2 jawapan yang ada.Harap2 betul.Nothing else you can do. The funny thing is, eventhough I was blindly clicking away the answer, I still can't manage to finish "tembak"ing..haha..

So,after what seem to be a long day,at 5pm, we were done and I can't wait to go home and get some sleep. Praying that I'll get through the 2nd stage.

Till then...

P/S:thanks to all of my friends who gave me good luck wishes and to J who is willing to open up my e-mail early in the morning to recheck my interview points.I'm sorry if susahkan you because I really wasn't prepare.Thanks again=)

today

hr ni laptop wat hal..ishh!
nak emo jap!

xkn ar pasni nk wat memorial plak..
tlg la elok balik..huhu..

An old friend

You have always been there throughout my 2 years in university.
Always helping me with my research and completing my assignments.
During my free times, you are the one that always entertain me. Remember all those korean movies marathon that we watched together and the endelss hours that we spent playing games? That was the good old times.

I still remember the day we first met. My father introduced you during my first semester as a diploma students. That was the period where I need help the most in completing my projects. So, you came just in time to save the day and you are still here all these years. Thanks to my father as well for playing a part in this.

You're a good secret keeper as well. All of my deep secrets are well saved in your memory. You never repeat it to other, unless of course if others invaded your memory. You also help me alot in making sure that all of my works are well organized and safely kept for future reference. That's the best function that you can offer. You are speacial as well since you can also write in Mandarin which is another feature that all of my other friends tend to be impressed with.

You really are a strong fellow. All these years, you have withstand so many things-heat,virusses and whatever things that I don't even understand. You never give me major problems as compared to your peers. You can still function while others tends to break down in the middle of the road. But not you and I hope you will continue to be strong as ever. Just be there with me for a few more semesters okay.

You are patient enough with me. Eventhough I've always scolded you for being a bit slow or suddenly hang while I was busy doing my work, but deep in my heart, I don't really mean it since I know you have aged and it's my fault as well for not maintaining you well. But, don't put the blame entirely on me. Yeah, but I admit, I'm naive in this maintenance thing. I'm quite impressed actually on how you can still manage to live all this while.

Anyway, I've learned to be patient when handling you because I know you have a short life and now that you are at your golden years, you tend to be a little bit sensitive. So, I'm dedicating a post for your to show that I'm grateful to have you in my life.

Thanks for being my laptop. My very first laptop. =)

That's my straw!

I'm not making any fuss about little things, but I just want to express my opinion here(which of course is the purpose of a blog at the first place).

Anyway, yesterday I went to Sunway Pyramid to do some shopping. Then, my mum and I had our dinner at one of the fast food chain there. So,at the restaurant, after placing my order, the cashier put my tray aside at the counter while waiting for our food to be prepared. My tray was sitting beside another woman's tray. Since she ordered her food first, the staff then prepared her food before mine. But, one thing that that woman did really pisssed me off. As she was leaving the counter with her tray, she unexpectedly with a non guilty look, took the straw which was in my tray! The straw that I personally took for my self. Out of the many straws in the restaurant, she choose the straw which is in MY TRAY.I was like.."what the hell?". Wah, suka2 hati je ambik. Kalau minta permission boleh tahan lagi. Ni tak..geram gak ar time tu.

So, within that short moment as she walked away from the counter, I was doing some calculation in my mind. Should I just let it go since it is just a small matter or should I stand for my rights and do what's right? Then I said "excuse me, EXCUSE ME..". The woman turned around. I continued, " I believe that's my straw". She then with a shocked face, put back my straw and the staff who was nearby then gave the woman another straw. She didn't even say she was sorry (atleast I didn't hear it).

But anyway, I was satisfied that day. Not because I got my straw back, but because I was doing what's right. I'm standing up for my rights and not let others step on me. Actually, I still can't believe that I actually did that, but yeah..I actually did it. And that's something that we must always do in life. No matter how small that matter might be, always do what's right, speak up and stand up for your rights!

To all of my friends..

The finals has ended and it's time for all of us to take a rest as we all deserve it.

I would like to take this opportunity to wish Happy Holidays to all my friends. And thanks to those people around me who have made this semester the best semester I've ever had! I really enjoyed myself this semester and had a great blast.Therefore, I would like to thanks to new friends and not forgotten the old ones. I've learned and experienced wonderful things and have travelled to places that I've never been to (even if it's in Shah Alam.hehe). There's so many things I would like to thank for but I know i could never write them in words as the list is endless.

I would also like to apologize to those who I have hurt them either directly or the other way around and for all the mistakes and wrongdoings I've done. I've started to miss my friends and U life(gosh, I can't believe I actually said that.haha)..

Anyway, till then, hope to see you guys soon! =)

Crazy night Part 2:conclusion

The second part of "crazy night" is to go karox.Others gave reason that they need to sing their heart out to ease the goosebumps they had after watching Jangan Tegur. They were not ready yet to go home since the images in the cinema is still fresh in their mind. So all of us went to Quality Hotel to unleash the singer in us.

We all had so much fun singing! We sang a various range of songs, from sad songs to love songs, rock, pop and even dangdut! I must say, I'm impressed with all the talents in the room that night. Ada chance nak masuk Karox Idol..haha..The few hours in the karox room is not sufficient enough to hold all of the talents and the microphones keep on changing hands without rest!

Anyway, we went back home pretty late that night. And to conclude my "crazy night", I only have another 3 hours to sleep before I need to attend an interview the next day which I'm not prepared for.Huhu..I guess I just have to try and stay awake and just "goreng" whatever I can during the interview.haha..

By the way, we also celebrated a friend's birthday that night. So, I'll take this chance to wish you Happy B'day =) And also special thanks to the person who also treat us with the karox and all of my friends who participated in this night which truly makes it a memorable night.

With that, I end Crazy Night:First Edition of 2009. Wait till next time for our second edition. Au revoir!

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My Review Report : The Finals

Here's a little review about the most feared and stressful moment in every semester. It's a period where people make the library as their second home, the TV and laptops as their enemies, snacks and food are their best friends and once in a while, they tend to turned into black-eyed zombies- THE FINALS..

TAX490	A damn tough paper! I just hope I'm able to score this paper. I was so damn stressed that I even went out that night for a movie.Haha..The movie was: "He's just not that into you". Quite an interesting 2hour movie. Gone are all of my study plan that day..Yeah, but it's a relieve that I needed.
MAF490	This is yet another paper that I have difficulty in answering. My first question which I was hoping will cover for the second part has gone down the drain as I wrongly calculate the figures! All 10 marks! Argghh! I can't help but feel really down with myself. I can't even study that night. Atlast, it took me some dose of TV, a pack of chocolates and a few phone calls and messages to calm me down. Thanks to all of my friends and my mum who are willing to hear emotions out. =)
ECO555	The paper was quite ok. But there were too many questions to be answered at a time that the whole 3 hours, I was wondering when will this end. But, it ends well eventually.
3RD LANGUAGE	Fin. No comment on this tough. All the roleplay and tests are long forgotten. I'm not sure myself if I still remember how to speak the language.Hehe..wait, let me test myself.... hmm..Oh, Oui..Bonjour! Haha..Yeah, I still got them in me =)
FAR450	The paper was okay. Though I only covered all the chapter during the last minute, but I manage to answer the question as it is. Yet, there's no guarantee on what I've written as I can't recheck the answers and my balance sheet was not balanced. Huh.. Nothing much I can do though.
LAW485	The paper was quite ok I guess. Hope I did well though. Always wanted to know how it feels to have a good grade in Law. Hurmm.. let see how it goes then..
MGT538	By now, I can't comment much about the paper since final has long gone(eventhough it has only been a week of holiday). All I can say is the paper was quite ok. By the time the clock hits 11.30pm, I was so relieved since I have a whole 2 months of holidays ahead of me and a trip that I looking forward to. So, with that, I bid everyone Happy Holidays and see you all next semester with new spirit, new stories and let start everything fresh.

Expected GPA: of course it's everyone's dream to get 4flat. I don't expect anything much but I still keep my eyes on the number 4. If I get it, Alhamdulillah. If I don't, well maybe it's best for me and I accept it. I just hope for the best though.

Crazy night part 1

Friday,10th of April was the last day of class for this semester. Excitement overwhelms me. I've made a plan with my friends to execute a project that night called "crazy night". It's a way for me to end the semester with style.hehe..


So, at 9.00pm, all 10 of us went to bukit raja to catch a movie. We were thorn between watching Fast n Furious or Jangan Tegur. The later, some of us have watched it but the former, we have to admit, most of us, especially the girls have a faint heart. But, eventually, we went with Jangan Tegur. All of us agree to it even though traces of fear are visible on our faces. After the tickets were bought, turns out that all of us can't sit in the same row. Thus, the level of fear increased up to another level. Since most of the girls are scared to watch the movie, we need to decide who sits next to whom. Standing in front of the cinema, it took us nearly 10 minutes to decide the "strategic" seating of everyone. It is assumed that with good partners, ghosts can't scare us off. But, somehow the theory doesn't work.


While waiting for the cinema to open, some girls needed a little of comfort words to calm themselves. It was rather funny I think. Walking down to our seats, we were holding hands. Try to be prepared mentally for the next one and half hour of darkness. The level of anxiety was like entering a ghost house. I bid good luck to the girls, hoping they make through the movie. But at the same time, I was also rather worried that some of them will cry or run out of the cinema.


When the movies starts, 15minutes through it, my friend next to me, R has started feeling anxious. She folded her legs on the seat and covering her face. I could see that she nearly cried. Another friend of mine, F is even more anxious. Through the whole movie, they are the ones who make most of the noises and keep covering their faces. But I have to admit, it was a scary movie. I do find myself covering my ears and eyes especially when you see your friend is nervous, you are also infected by that feeling. Even other audiences in the cinema were making uneasy sounds and moves. Some nearly scream out of shock, some were cursing the movie and there were also others who sank down on their seats halfway through the movie.

After the movie, some of us started to imagine how are they going to go through the rest of the night. They have started to imagine the fear that is to come especially when some of us are living in the college and will be staying up late to study for the finals. Some even plan to sleepover that night to accompany them. We were also teasing each other, especially A whom we know are also scared as she closed her eyes throughout the movie, but she was the one who excitedly teasing others.


But, I must say, it was a crazy experience but totally fun. Even though most of us are scared, but going through it with your friends makes it much better. On top of that, it was really amusing to see all the I-hope-I'll-make through-this-movie-alive faces and reactions.



So, with that, I mark "crazy night" part 1 as executed successfully.

To be continued...

A home retreat

Dah lame aku tak balik rumah. Semua ini kerana kesibukan dengan kerja kuliah. Semester ni adalah semester yang sangat sibuk. Kalau dulu, setiap minggu boleh balik ke rumah. Oleh kerana dah lama tak balik rumah, mula la rasa rindu. I thought I was strong enough to stand on my own. But the truth is, who can be alone right? Once in a while, we need to have to recharge ourselves with a short home visit. I started to question myself, how strong will I be if i furthur my studies overseas, where I'll be seperated from my family by the distances.

Last week, I got a chance to come back home after a month of being away. Happy sangat time tu. I try to absorb every moment there. Bila ayah datang ambik kat shah alam, akak kucup tangan ayah. Dah lama akak tak jumpe ayah. Dalam kereta, akak perhatikan ayah bawa kereta. Ayah dah semakin tua. Ayah sihat ke selama ni? This is the man that has been supporting the family. The man that has always guide me in life and giving me meaningful advices. Akak dan adik-adik lain dah semakin membesar. I wonder wether he knows that we love him so much. That I always say his name in my prayers. Praying to God that He will bless our family.

Sampai je kat rumah, aku jumpe ibu. Tangan ibu dikucup lembut. Dah lama tak jumpa ibu. Ibu pun agak terkejut kerana dia tak tahu pun yang aku akan pulang ke rumah.

Malam tu, ibu masak tapi aku takde selera nak makan. Tak tahu la kenapa. Ibu tanya, dah makan ke, aku mengiakan sahaja. Aku kata aku dah jamah nasi tu sikit demi menjaga hati ibu. Di meja makan, aku dan adik - adik lain duduk bersama sambil makan. Aku mulakan celoteh ku dengan mengeluarkan semua cerita - cerita panas yang berlaku di universiti. Riuh satu rumah dibuatnya.

Ketika asyik berborak, aku terfikir, macam mane agaknya keadaan di rumah ketika aku berada di kelas. Adakah mereka masih seceria ini?Adakah mereka dapat duduk makan bersama setiap malam?

Aku juga teringat yang minggu yang akan datang, aku juga tidak dapat balik ke rumah. Jadi, aku sengaja ajukan soalan kepada ibu, "ibu, sedap ke sambal yang you makan tu? nak sikit boleh?" Tujuan ku adalah untuk merasa suapan nasi dari tangan ibu. Saja nak bermanja - manja dengan ibu. Aku mendekati ibu, dan ibu menyuapkan sedikit nasi ke mulutku. Rasa bahagia yang teramat sangat. It's a small gesture, but it is a gesture that we will miss the most in the world.

Malam tu juga, aku cuba bersihkan rumah sedikit. Hanya menyapu dan mop lantai dan kemas sedikit barang-barang di dapur. Sekurang - kurangnya, nampak kemas sikit. Itu sedikit sebanyak yang mampu ku sumbangkan untuk keluarga. Ibu nampak gembira dengan bantuan ku. Ibu juga ada minta bantuan ku untuk buat beberapa kerja lain. Walaupun malam tu sangat penat dan hati pun rasa malas memikirkan assingment yang masih menimbun, tapi ku turutkan juga dengan senyuman. Aku memberi semangat pada diriku, yang menolong ibu tu satu kerja mulia. Balasan yang Allah berikan tak ternilai harganya.

Besok pagi - pagi lagi dah bertolak ke shah alam. Walaupun masih mengantuk, tapi aku gembira. Jiwaku tenang dan terisi. I might sound all mushy writing all these, but I'm actually living the moment and appreciate every second of my life. Try to upheld to not take things for granted. The moments with my family is the inspiration I need to keep me sane in this hectic world.

So friends, if you have the chance to visit your parents, do so while we still have the chance. I still remember my uncle used to say "masa parents kita masih ada la kita kena tunjukkan kasih sayang kita. kalau diorang dah takde, dah tak berguna". My dad pun selalu cakap, "orang-orang tua bukan nak harta or duit anak-anak. Diorang just nak tengok samada anak-anak diorang ni datang tak lawat dia. They just want to know that their children is always there." That's why, everytime my granddad comes to KL, my father will visit him at my uncle's house. All of my relatives that live around KL will come and visit him which I think is a good value that we should follow. A value in which I'll follow. Thanks dad for the advice.

old diaries, old memories

I found some of my old diaries, and I would like to share one of the story here as I found it very amusing. This post was written about a year ago on 2 January 2008. I think it was written a day before the semeseter starts.It starts with :

"Yesterday night, I slept early and suddenly was woke up around 2.30 am. I tried to continue sleeping, but instead I turned up tossing and turning on my bed. So, I decided to pack up some of my items to bring to UiTM. As I was packing, I found my long forgotten friends - my old diaries. The diary that has been with me through my teenage years.I flipped through it and checked the date. It was dated somewhere 6 to 7 years back. All the memories during high school was written in it.

I spent nearly an hour reading through it. Many different thoughts and feelings came over me as I sit there by my bed flipping my old friend. Happy, sad, dissapointment, embarassed and etc.The stories (my stories actually) was actually rather funny and some what embarassing too.Haha.."

I can say that most of the stories in the diaries were about friendship and some of my crushes. Feel like smiling when I think back about those years. I wonder where there are now? Having a crush is really a crazy, unexplainable feeling since you like that person but he doesn't know how much you like him. Every sight and conversation with that person makes your heart lurch with excitement and you tend to hold on to that 5 second of conversation you had with him for the whole week! You can't even stop smiling to your ears.


Although the inside of you are screaming frantically, you still manage to control your emotion and you facial expression (as you can't help but smile and you started to blush). So for the rest of the week, no matter how short your conversation was, you will play the scenario again and again for the rest of the day. I personally can remember some of the scenes I had with my crushes and it really makes me laugh.

But the stories I wrote back then was kind of short. I wish I wrote more back at those days. Thus, I think I will start writing more now. Maybe 10 years from now, when I'm 30 years old, have a bunch of kids and is a successful corporate women, I'll look back at those diaries and be reminded of the fun and excitement I had during my university years.

Life comes once, so appreciate every single second of it.

An hour to live

If you have an hour to live, who would you call?..

What will you say?..

And, why wait?

These short but meaningful phrase hit me when I was browsing a bookshop. It was written in a book titled "An Hour To Live, An Hour To Love". I read through the first page and end up reading it in an express way within one hour. I must admit that I can't read it at my own leisure as i felt that the storekeeper keeps eyeing me and I keep changing my reading spot to run from his detection. Haha.. But, all in all, I learned a lot from the book. The whole time while I was reading the book, I kept thinking of my parents and all those people who are close to my heart.

Sometimes, we take life for granted. Past experiences has thought me to appreciate every moment I have but as human, we do tend to forgot life greatest lessons. But, the real meaning behind the book was that we should always appreciate those around us and tell them how much we love and appreciate them everyday as you never know what will happen tomorrow.

Just like in the book. It's a story of a wife who wrote it in the memories of her deceased husband. The book started with a letter written by her husband on their anniversary day. The letter was an expression of his undying love to his wife, the one person that he would call if he has one more hour to live.

So, dear friends, I recommend you to read this book as it is not only a heart feeling story of one love story, but there's a deeper meaning behind it. Let it remind us that if you ever had one more hour to live, who would you call? What will you say?...and why wait?

P/S : if I'm not mistaken, the husband was also the famous author of "don't sweat the small stuff"

A HAPPY DAY

Today, is the last episode of Spa Q. To all Spa Q fans - those who admit it, or hide it =) - it's the conclusion that we've been waiting for. Though the ending was a bit disappointing, but atleast the tension of guessing the end has well, ended. . I must say, it's fun watching this drama series especially as I share these with my housemate. Still remember, every weekdays, by 6.30p.m, all of us girls will be patiently waiting for the drama to start. I guess that's the good thing about television. It brings people together. But, with every ending, comes a new beginning. Can't wait what will fill my 6.30pm slot next week.



P/S: met a cute celebrity today. HAHA.. Took pictures and get his autograph. My first time experience of facing a real life celebrity. Though I was nervous, but at the same time, I was so excited! I guess, my friend who was with me that day was even more excited. Dear friend, I can guess what's the background of your desktop now.Haha..Sweet dreams then =)

the untold stories

Everyone has a story deep inside them. These stories could change the way they see the world. You never knew what the person, sitting right beside you now might have to tell. How their days have been? How's life has been treating them? what are they thinking right now?

It is true that human themselves are good actors. We face the world with a mask on our face. I'm not saying that everyone is a fake, but it's human nature to survive in the social world. But, sometimes, we have to hide our true feeling. We face the world with a happy and brave face or just even smile, even when someone totally pissed us off. We even laugh out loud with our friends, just to shake off the sadness of a broken heart that's been gloaming.

So, it's best if we just listen. A simple act the most of us tend to forget. You can know someone just by listening to them. I've met people with their own philosophy about love or life because they were hurt too many times or turned down too many times. These untold stories makes everyone look at the same picture but interpret it differently by looking through their own eyes.

But, whatever it is, these untold stories make someone real, and create who they are today. You never know pain till you feel it. You never know love, till you experience it. And you never know life, till you face it. Thus, never judge a person too early as we never know how much we'll be able to learn from them. All it takes is a simple act of listening and building rapport.

So, what's your story to tell?

Our attitude

This March, AFTAS has come up with several activities, that are Debate Debut and Motivational Talk.

Can't wait to see the talents in our batch. Good luck to Mona, Maryam and Naz. Make us proud! and to the others, let's come and support our batch.

I'm quite proud and amazed by the effort given by AFTAS committee to publicize those events. With all those fliers, posters, and not to mention the letter from KP for the motivational talk. That was really something!

But, with or without the letter, we as accoounting students should be eager and pro active in being involved with the accounting field. The responds towards talks conducted really potrays your commitment toward being the leaders in the Accounting field. Believe me my friend, AFTAS will not conduct an event that will not benefit the student. Moreover, BDO Binder is a corporate company. What will they think of us, UiTM students, if the responds were not welcoming? Would that not smear the reputation of UiTM students themselves? So, I'm urging my dear friends to support such activities and change those attitudes of being pessimist. You know who yourself is. Action speaks louder than words.

But whatever it is, rawk on AFTAS students!
Till then.

Introduction

dear readers,

Here's a little diary of my thoughts and feelings. At the time being, I choose to remain anonymous, just for the sake of fun and to protect the privacy of those who might directly on indirectly involved in this blog as they might be closely related to you.

I walk among you(my dear batch mates). I'm no different from the others. An ordinary girl living the everyday life. I hope dear readers will continue following my stories. Maybe you will be able to identify who I am as clues are lying around everywhere =) Comments and questions are always welcome here.

Maybe, one day I'll reveal who I am. Who likes being kept in the dark for such a long time right?

This will definitely be an interesting journey.

Till then. Au revoir.